DMB, The Past, The Future, and I So Needed This Weekend.

So, I suppose it really doesn't matter to me anymore that BP reads my blog. (here, be nosey, this will tell you all.) As you can see I've gotten increasingly bitchy with him, more or less. I just cannot take it anymore. It's either hit or miss with him.

I stress out myself soo much, trying to reason with him, we get so far in our conversations and then it usually ends up with, "I can't do this right now." (be with me) And he gets soo frickin mad at me for the stupidest stuff. Like Saturday night I went to the casino with my cuz and her two friends for her 21st birthday. He tells me to have fun at the stupid casino. (thankssss.) Then last nite, he gets mad cuz I called him to talk and he's playing Xbox with his friends, and I'm like oh I'll let you go, and he was like fine, whatever and got pissy. >.<

So, I'm at my wits end. I tell him I can't do this anymore, he gets kinda annoyed//upset. Listen buddy, you can't have your cake and eat it too. You can't get mad at me for stuff like you're my bf, but want so much space. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!

Anyhoodle. Um, sorry about that. So this past weekend was pretty good.

On Friday, bestie && I went to my cuzins family party for her birthday. My family and the other side of hers were both there. =) My other cuzins son was there..and he was sooo cute, racing his lil matchbox car up and down the hallway. I gave him tickles, and he was soo cute because he said stop it, please. (hes almost 3)

After that, we went to Denny's and just chilled, then went back to her housee.

Saturday, I woke up early..and got ready, packed a bag and hit up the casino with my cousin and her two friends. My uncle knows a highroller, so we got an awesome suite in the MGM Grand Hotel at Foxwoods. =D (baller) We chilled, got dressed, drank some, and then headed down to the Hard Rock Cafe for her birthday with my aunt, uncle, and my cuz's other aunt and uncle. Then we gambled at tad, then we went back to the room, then out again. (lol) Then back to the room, where something shitty happened.

I went to push myself up on the bed because it was a lil high and my knee went psycho and like popped and ugh, the pain was horrid. Eventually, it went away, it still hurts like a bitch but at least its bareable now. I just walk with a limp. Its funny. (not really)

Overall the nite was pretty fun, not really any cute guys though. (sigh)



Sunday I arrived back home around 1230 and went to the Exs. He's been a really great friend, and we just chilled and I showed him the Youtube vid I'm obsessed with. (linkage below) Then we went out and just drove around and talked. It was nice to have an ear listen to me. =)

(Sorry this post is lonngggg. lol)



Oh, so DMB(hes obessed with Dave Matthews Band). I mentioned him in a post a while back. He's an ex of mine from really like 5 yrs ago. I dated him breifly and broke up with him (even tho he was an awesome bf) bc I was young and dumd. (Irony much?) He's now back in my life and pretty much asked me out. I shared this tiny fact with BP last nite. He wasn't too happy, thought it was an excuse to walk outta his life. (um nah) But, I've been considering the options. For now I think I'm just gonna lay low, chill with DMB maybe once or twice and let things happen.

Idk what will become of me and BP and I'm not sure what to do. I think right now, I'm just gonna back off, do my thing and see what happens. If nothing, well life goes on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5JFdJkBLUI