The Worst Friday Ever.

Honestly. I didn't want to get out of bed today and come to work. I felt like such crap physically and emotionally.

I haven't really been eating all to much, so I don't think that's really helped with the way I feel. I just want to curl up in a ball and stop feeling like shit.

I don't trust anyone and I don't want to trust anyone. Especially after yesterdays convo about how HCD hates me. (well except for jenna, cuz shes cool.) I don't trust CTEurospec..or this kid MK4GTI.

Right now, I hate BP sooo much. He made me ten times unhappier than I ever could of made him..I have no trust in ANYONE except for my bestie and I hate that I feel out of place in my own world..in the dub world. I've been in the scene forever nowwww..but I feel like I was outcast the most.

I have no clue what I'm going to do tonite, if anything except lay in bed watching the Disney Channel. (I got over loathing it haha)

My bestie also believes that there's something more to the story..and why BP didn't wanna be with me. She thinks as do I, that one of his guy friends said something to him. He swears no one did, that he never really talked to anyone about it. I know it can't be a girl though, because he'd probably be honest and up front about it.

Well life goes on, hopefully to get better. You have to go thru the darkness and the pain to become stronger.