"I Jumped in the Pool After A Beer And In the Process, Killed My Phone."

**WARNING LONG POST**

Swan said the above quote. ((lol)) That's what happened in OCMD when he went. Silly drunk people! He now has a new phone. It's all good. Onward, with the other exciting ((not really I lied)) news.

Monday night, I sent Leah a myspace message. It was nice and friendly..what she sent back was nice and friendly. She said Dan and I should come over on Saturday, so I can do that. I was the bigger person and gave in..so I can be an even bigger person and forgive but never forget what she said about me..or how she tried to personally attack me. I just have issues with girls.

I've given my trust and all to one and in turn I've:
a) been told I was a shitty friend by my best friend in high school of 8 yrs because her bf treated her like crap and she didn't like that I didn't agree with how he treated her. ((4 yrs later and a lot of abuse they finally broke up))
b) been stabbed in the back by this girl I spent bascially everyday with for a year, who decided that the boii I broke up with just the night before, would be a good booty call ((I was trying to get back with him too!))
c) had another best friend talk crap about me to my bestie ((she sorta isnt anymore again)) while they played tennis every sunday.
d) had j.dubs talk crap about me, and bascially make me feel like I was never ever wanted around.
e) had a friend who used me primarily for rides to "run" her errands, visit or find her now ex bf, and go to the pike.

So you can see why I have a lot of guy friends. No matter what they've been there for me. They've come in and out of my life, but I know there's a select few ((my brothers)) who I can count on. I'm not going to say I'm not entirely not to blame either. I'm sure I've done things that people don't like..but I try my hardest to be the best friend to someone and usually ((recently)) I've just gotten shit on.

There's been times when it's been me, and three other boiis in my car. Usually LB, Swan, and someone else. And sometimes I feel like someone is just gonna scream out that I'm a whore, but in fact the only person I "do" things with as you know is LB.

Right now, I currently have a couple of gfs and one best friend. Unfortunately, the bestie is longer "the bestie." As you know, we made up and such, but we both just are kinda in our own little relationship world. Which is no big deal, I'm sure I'll see her more when she moves in with her bf in August.

My current best friend is Amy. Even though, after LB and I broke up Amy and I pretty much broke up, we know have our relationship back on track! She's a sweet caring woman who's married to her high school sweetheart, who at 23 own there own house, and have 2 wonderful dauschand pups ((charlie and peanut)) and who in the next 9 mnths will try and have conceive! She is and always has been a good friend. The only thing though is no matter what would happen between me and LB, she would always take his side. Which is fair, because they have known each other forever. ((the 3 of em)).

I have been spending some more time with PA Lover, something that kinda dropped off when her and J.Dubs started hanging out all the time. And she was hanging out with this chick Kendall for a while too. I think she just kinda floats between gfs and that's totally understandable..she's that type of person.

In some juicy news: apparently J.Dubs and Lou are most likely going to break up. Apparently they had a big blow out Friday before they left for OCMD, and now I guess Lou is going home to Rhode Island ((where he's from)) for the week..the week they took off together mind you. I guess they were supposed to go to PA with PA Lover and Lil B this weekend, and apparently that's when J.Dubs told Pa Lover, who told me. Judging by their statuses on FB though, I kinda felt like it was coming. They were a decent couple, but time and time again, J.Dubs would flip on Lou if she didn't get her way or he did something stupid ((like step on her shoes!!)). And he would flip on her, if things didn't go his way. I think they "settled" for each other, which is the worse..in my opinion. Who knows if Lou will return next week and they'll patch it, or if moving on will be done. Either way, I'm staying "neutral." In a way I think the break-up is a long time coming but on the other hand, they've been together for a quite a bit of time, and should be able to work it out.

Anyway, sorry about the uber longgg post!!!!!!!! hehehe.

I'm Pretty Sure That I Laughed At the Expense of Your Heartbreak.

It's Monday morning, ya know what that means! Weekend Recap time! ((woot woot)) ::insert clap here::

Anyway, onwards!

Friday
-got outta work at 5 per usual. then it was off to my LBs
-we went and picked up the pup at doggie daycare
-then it was off to the grocery store to get some stuff to make taco dip
-made some taco dip for dinner and played some xbox
-some cuddling was done and some watching of the Disney Channel. ((lol))
-then it was home and to sleep.

Saturday
-got up at 930
-got ready and then it was off to LB's
-got everything we needed and then left for Charlie's appt for his oil change
-then at noon it was off to Boston!
-we got there around 215, and by the time we parked it was almost 3.
-we went to the science center which was pretty cool. we didn't really stop and do alot though because it was already 3pm and they close at 5pm.
-so we did as much as we could..and then headed over to the Galleria Mall.
-we hit up Borders because we needed to check out a map and figure out what the hell we were going to do!
-after that we took the Green Line (T) to Prudential Center
-walked around there a little bit and then had some dinner at the California Pizza Kitchen
-after that we went back to the parking garage and left.
-while we were in the science center, leah called, apparently she was inviting us over.
-LB txted her boyfrrreeen and said we would not be over because by the time we got home it was 1115.
-played some video games, and I was so tired, I ended up staying at LBs.
-which sleeping there sucks! because he has a twin bed. and I was pushed against the wall..and mulli ((his dog)) was making it hott, because he always has to lay between us at the end of the bed.

Sunday
-got up around 9am.
-hung out for a little then it was off to do errands for his mom.
-we went to Lowes to get exchange a hose, get some Preen, and a broom
-then off to Stop & Shop.
-its our local grocery store. and now they have scanners! its uber cool. you bascially get your bags ((we have the recycleable ones)) and then you scan and bag at the same time! like, say you want a can of mushrooms. you pick up the can, scan it, and bag it. and right there on the scanner is what you've "purchased" so far.
-then you bring to the self checkout or regular checkout ((doesnt matter)) and scan the barcode and it puts you're order in! then you just pay and leave, and you're all set!
-after that, we dropped the food off and then it was off to wings so LB could pick up his schedule..which didn't go so well. >.<
-apparently there's a new GM, because the old one "wasn't do anything right" and was moved down to a manager and then all of a sudden he was gone.
-and well apparently the new GM didn't bother to put LB on the schedule because they only met once and the new GM doesn't know LB that well and didn't know his availability
-and apparently the new GM doesn't know how to do his job because he never bothered to call LB ((which I think it the RIGHT way to handle it)) and ask him what his availability was.
-so LB went in there around 6 last night and talked to him and the GM said all that crap..and then gave him Friday from 5-slow ((whenever it gets slow)) and 11-4 on Saturday.
and also made a very unprofessional comment about how he thinks the place runs better with the old GM gone. ((douche!))
-but yet, I don't think it will fair any better, probably wayyy worse because a)he's being unfair with scheduling, he moved Amanda ((LB's other best friends gf)) to phones so now she's making way less because she can't collect tips. b)he decided it was better to have only 3 cooks, and only one on Friday nights..like wtf?! and c) he just seems douche baggish, like to the point where I think he would not even let a driver come up if they were super slow. ((i live out of the delivery area apparently))
-anyway, before that, we had taken mulli to the doggie park where he made a new friend, otis the pug. everytime i would throw the ball, mulli and the pug took off together...then they laid in the shade together...it was super cute.
-then we ate some dinna, played some video games, and then went to the bar for a bit.
-my favorite bar tender/owner was working..and it was super quiet. i really enjoyed it.
-jay is a super sweet guy, and we love talking to him. last night, we discussed how he doesn't wanna have kids or get married. i told him he was crazy! he's in this earlier 30s..but hey i guess that's cool either way!
-then it was home for me.

And that's about it!

**Also my title has to do with BP, I happened to see his away msg yesterday ((LB has him on his AIM list)) and he's all sad and depressed because his high school gf broke his heart..awwww..wait, did I say high school?! Yes, indeed, he went to her prom Saturday night, fucken creepy. So, I laugh..heheheheh.**

Sometimes...

I just wanna smack LB. As you all know, Leah and I do not get along. As I have stated before she called me a whore on my facebook wall after I started dating BP, and her and LB's best friend's ((Leahs bf)) sister wrote me nasty messages on facebook. I attempted to play volleyball with her last week, and I left upset because the whole time I was met with stares, giggles and inside jokes.

But no, LB still presses the issue. Yes, I know that everyone else except her don't mind me. But I know Leah will steal Amanda ((LB's other best friends gf)) away and sit in the corner giggling and staring. And the boiis will be playing Wii or drinking together. He thinks I don't know this..he thinks I'm just assuming things, thinks I'm making it worse than it is. I wouldn't mind going if we weren't gonna be stuck in Leah and LB's best friends tiny apartment all night long consuming alcohol. ((Well, probably not me, only because I really have been drinkin more than I wanna. Well more times a week than I wanna.)) I know he wants to see his best friends and spend time with them, but until I feel that Leah won't verbally abuse me or stare at me or say shit..then I want nothing to do with her. LB claims shes not like that..and he defends her like crazy because she helped him during a hard time. ((obvii when I broke his heart))

I'm just tired of feeling guilty and bratty, and like I only want it my way because it's no good any other way. That's not true! It's not like we are going to a party or out somewhere, we are all gonna be in their tiny apartment. I apologize in advance for being screwed over by almost every chick friend I've ever had. ((except Amy..)) I have bad trust issues and I always think everyone is talking about me because I was picked on in middle school so bad. I'm sorry that Absolut doesn't make me feel any better nor that PA Lova does either. I'm sorry the chick practically used to me so she didn't have to be alone at car shows.

I'm just sick of getting mistreated by people and feeling like I have to be forced into trying to amend things before I'm ready. Cause I'm sorry but Leah is a biitch. She was good friends with her bfs sis and that went haywire...and I know a lot of her friendships went downhill..I'm not sure why..but Leah can be pretty bitchy. If he wants to go over there, that's fine..but I could care less to give up my ability to be happy.

Ok, I feel better. Sorry for ranting. I'm just sick of LB making me feel like shit and that its all my fault.

"My Bike Could Beat A Ferrari.."

Coco texted me that last night after I told him there was a Ferrari at Pig Out. Crotch rocket v. Ferrari? Hmmm.

Anyways, before I type anything else, I must tell you about a contest the lovely Far @ My Everyday Soap (Opera) is having! She is having a giveaway as a thank-you to everyone who reads her blog! She just became a certified make-up artist and the photos and work she's done is great! So get your booties on over to her blog and enter her contest and check out her work!There's two prizes being given away!!

This weekend my bestie Swan is going to Ocean City MD for Dubs on the Beach ((ya know that thing I was not invited too!?)). Anyways, Swan, LB and I all went out to Pig Out last night for some drinks. Swan tells us that J.Dubs and Lou are short 3 people. So, they need everyone to pay an extra 30 bucks on top of the 70 everyone had already given em before. ((Here weeee goooo...)) Plus, I believe that I read somewhere ((forums btw! lol)) that they want 25 from everyone for food so that they don't have to go out and waste money.

So, I feel like this weekend is going to turn out just like H20 ((click it!)) did for me and LB. Swan is on his way down now with Mr. West. LB and I already informed Swan whom will inform Mr. West of how it's going go. Bascially, if they don't do exactly what J.Dubs and Lou and Co. wanna do, well then, they will be cast out like D-list celebrities. So, I waiting patiently for a video/picture/text to pop up over my phone this weekend. Cause Mr. West will not deal with that sitting around thing they do. One key=retards going out at midnite=locking others out=probably a fight. That's all I'm saying. =P

Anyways, I digress. So, my dad told me about maybe applying at a volunteer ambulance corps. And I thought, hmmm, maybe I'll look into that. Apparently, there's actually a step before EMT-B which MRT (Medical Response Technician). The MRT is only 250.00 which is alot more feasiable at the moment then the 600.00 EMT-B class. Well, I looked into it and the next town over has MRT classes. They are also willing to reemburse you for that class and the EMT-B class. Unfortunately though, I just missed the MRT class ((it started May 19th)) and there's nothing on the website about any other classes up and coming yet. And there really isn't much in the way of MRT classes..soo hopefully something pops up in the fall. =D

Yup..Money Makes Me Hate Life!!

So, I deleted my last post about being uber excited to go to Florida. Why? I STILL CANNOT AFFORD IT! Thanks for the comment Sheri !!! =) So, Cape Cod is still on. For how long, I'm not sure. Probably like 3-4 days. Oye being poor!!

So, this weekend LB and I will actually be taking a little one day trip up to Boston. We're nerdos so we are for sure going to hit up the science museum. Even though I'm a Yankee fan I do prefer visiting Boston as opposed to visting NYC. So much walking and getting nowhere (in my opinion) in New York. Idk, just a personal prefence I suppose.

That's about all I got for today. Nothing else really going on.

I Had This Thought, "I Really Like To Punch Your Volkswagen In the Cunt, Ya Know If It Had One?"

Good Tuesday morning everyone. I'm sitting here chillen out at work per usual. Hope everyone had a good weekend! And um excuse me, where are the comments!!! Just playing..kinda. I shall get to my weekend recap in a moment but for now I digress.

So, like everyday that I'm at work, I am signed into AIM, when an IM pops up from Tim. I've know Tim for about a year now, he's part of AbsolutDubs when he's home. ((he currently goes to school in Boston)). Anway, he said:

TIM:
"hey"
"hows charlie"
"where were you sunday"

ME:
"I'm good, what was sunday?"
"I mean, charlies good, what was sunday?"

TIM:
"Lol thats good."
"j.dubs had people over her house"
"where were you?"
"well iI'm off to class, talk to you later."

And just like that, he signed off, without me able to say a word. I knew j.dubs was having people over, but as you all know, I pretty much dropped outta the dub scene, so I was a) not invited and b) didn't care to show up. I miss Tim, but eh. Fuck em.

Anywho:

Friday
-got outta work. went to LB's.
-we decided to call up Jay and Amy ((the ones with the mini dauschands Charlie and Peanut??)) ok nvrmind if you don't member. ((lol))
-we went over there around 730, then peaced out and drove the hour and a half to West Nyack, NY to Dave and Busters!!!
-we got some foodage, and played some games. LB and I had close to 4000 tickets combined, but we couldn't figure out what the hell to get.
-I ended up with a patrick ((from spongebob)) stuffed animal. he's dressed like a pirate! ((lmao))
-LB ended up getting a mini USB travel kit because it came with a tiny mouse, and he needed it for the laptop.
-We ended up leaving around 2am, and got home around 315am.
-Then it was to LBs to sleepy, we were pooped.

Saturday
-We woke up around 930am and got ready.
-Played Xbox for a while..then went to the bar with his dad to get some lunch.
-Then it was off to my cousin's son's birthday party at my aunt's.
-Chilled out, ate some foodage, and then around 630 we went back to LB's.
-Justin, Jay and Amy ended up coming over, and the boiis watched silly youtube vids while Amy and I played Sorry! and card games.
-I haven't seen Justin either in forever. His wife is actually Amy's cousin. And they're prego! They're expecting Grace next month! =) I'm uber excited!
-They left around 1am and it off to bed.

Sunday
-Woke up around 1030am and chilled out.
-We went out for a little while, then came back and mowed the lawn, had some lunch and then went out with the bestie and her bf.
-We ended up trecking up to Cabela's.
-Walked around there for a while and then it was back to LB's where I made brownies.
-Around 9pm we ended up going to Jay and Amy's and watched Paul Blart: Mall Cop.
-It was a seriously funny movie.
-Around midnite, we called it a night because LB had to work yesterday.
-Got home, played a little Xbox and then it off to bed.

Monday
-Woke up at 900am.
-Got everything out to make eggs and bacon. ((now that I think of it I forgot the toast, oopsie))
-Made LB breakfast with chocolate milk...(((mmmmmm)))
-Then he was off to work at Subway for 11am-3pm.
-I cleaned up and then it was off to the doggie park in Southington with Mulligan.
-Stayed there for about 20 mins while he ran around sniffing and running and ewwwieeee slobbering.
-Took him home, made sure he had enough food and water and that he wouldn't be too hott or cold and then it was home for me.
-Chilled out watching some Full House and such.
-Then went to visit LB between his jobs.. ((he had to work at Wings for 5pm))
-Played some Xbox then went back home to get some fried dough
-Tried to watch tv but kept falling asleep
-Swan texted me around 7pm saying he was home ((he went to PA for the weekend))
-We went to LBs for a bit ((he wasn't home, but noooooo way would I do anything with Swan EVER))
-Then to Wally World, drove around a bit then went back to LBs
-LB got outta work, then we chilled for about half..
-Brought Swan home because he was uber tired and got some gas and then back to LB's.
-Played some more Xbox and then it was time to go home around 1230.

And there you have it! Had an awesome weekend with LB. <333 Possibly going to Primer this weekend in Rhode Island..((car show)). Who knows! Have a great day everyone...won't be posting tomorrow as you know because I don't work Wednesdays!

=p

So, I'm Pretty Sure That..Oh Forget It.

Hellooooo again. It's me. The uber, I have no clue. Wow, this is getting no where. I have a lack of thinking ability right now. It's dead quiet in the office. We all have nada to do, a rare feat indeed. So, I think we should all just go home. But, I don't see forsee that happening. Usually the owner would call by now. But, he hasn't. There's approx half an hour left till we find out if there is any sort of hope..after 3pm..forget abouttt it.

I'm currently starring at my arms. I believe they got smaller ((yay!)). I have chicken skin though or exezmea (sp?). I'm going to WebMd it. Well, that was gross. I decided to click on some pics..and honestly..don't ever take a pic of your pimples or skin-whatever up close! SO nasty!

I digress.

Last night, LB and I were also discussing moving. Like to another state. As you all are well aware of, I have a slight obsession with Florida. Well, LB said he doesn't want Florida to get boring which honestly it would..because he would rather continue to vacation there. He told me to wants to move to the Carolinas. Well, you see, I'd have to be uber close to the beach. They still get 60 days at the coast there. But, I don't know if it's ideal. I'm uber picky..and I just don't think I'd like it. I mean here's the thing. I like Connecticut..I do. But, I just hate winter. And the places I've been in Florida reminds me of here, but just with palm trees instead of pine trees and the beach and flat roads and the beautiful sun and warm weather. <333 So, I don't knoowww, it's still a while away..but its got me thinking...

And now I must go..I have work to do. Love how at 300pm I get work..couldn't just let us go home huh? Damnnn.