Slippery When Wet

So I'm sitting here, pretty much falling asleep. Oh the things that happened this past weekend make me wanna go insane. I'm so tired I don't even know how I'm not drifting off to lala land.

It's really frickin bad..I dont even know how I'm typing. My eyes wont shutting.

H20 International or Bust!!!!

So today is the day. Leaving for Ocean City Maryland tonite after work with the ex. Hmmm. I wonder how this is going to go. Most of you probably wonder why he's going with me. Only cause he paid my club [AbsolutDubs] the money to stay and cause no one else can go. And I for one am not driving 6 to possibly 8 hrs by myself in the rain, wind and darkness. No thank you. So we are leaving sometime between 7-8 tonite, I'm taking the advice of my uncle to avoid the horrendous New York traffic. We'll probably get there between midnite and 2 am. Sooo not that bad. I'll probably just crash though. Tomorrow I have no clue what we're doing but I think hitting the beach is an uber possibility. I'm so excited its ridiculous but its combining two of my loves. Volkswagens and Ocean City.<33 I've been going to Ocean City since I was three soo I know it like the back of my hand.

So pretty much today at work is just a ho-hum kinda day. A blahhh rainy Friday.

Sooo to recap: last night I felt like a chicken running around with its head cut off. I wanted to wash my Charlie [I named him!!] but I skipped on that since its pourrring out today. And I totally forgot I had to go home and eat dinner so my awesome Dad could put the ez pass on..soo I can sail thru those tolls instead of having to stop and pay. I've been having horrid dreams of someone rear-ending me at them soo I feel a little bit better about this. Anyways, then I packed, which didn't take toooo long. Got everything in a small duffle bag except my towels which I threw into a beach bag, no biggie. Then I went to pick up my cousin cause we have been going to the Canton get together [which is bascially a location where people hang out and talk about their cars,etc.]and proceeded to the exs so I could drop off some stuff and we could decide on some snakes for the trip. Then I brought him home..and we went and got gas...and went and met my friend Erik at Panera Bread so he could follow me.

Soo we were cruisin along..and I get there..and Coreys high as a motherfcker. And now I'm pretty upset..cause he's all in his no don't touch me kinda mood. And I was getting sooooo annnoyed. But whateve. Soo me and my cousing and Erik were just standing there bored outta our minds..then Corey says 15 mins after we get there [mind you] that he's gonna go grab a beer with one of his friends and I kinda sorta got mad. And I told him I wanted my game back [i lent him call of duty 4] and he said its at home..and I just wanted to straight up punch him..sooo we fought a bit but I still gave him a hug goodbye and then this guy Mike came over to look at my white painted steelies [said they were hottt] and I showed him the color matched trim inside of my car. [thanks to my ex btw!]

So then me my cousin Heather and Erik all bounced back to Bristol, and we were gonna go to the Hibiaci since they don't card there..cause my cousin is 20 and Erik's 19 but they were closed soo we just ended up going to the Applewood Diner and having breakfast. We just sat and talked for a while..it was nice.

Then I went home, laid in bed, IMing pple on my phone and watching Adult Swim.
Bascially not an overall exciting night but still tons of fun in my opinion. So now its just another 7 hrs of work and then I'm out and off to H20. I'll be back Monday around 2 cause my friend has class at four..and I have driver re-training [yippie, not!]..soo unless I post another blog [highly likely!] I will be back on Monday.

Soo have a good weekend everyone!

Learning To Fly

So I've come to a stand-still in my life. Everythings soo confusing and I'm just going with the flow of life. I need some excitement, something new. Don't get me wrong..I'd be nothing without the consistency in my life but sometimes change does a body good. I go to work 830-500 everyday, and every night just either go to local volkswagen get-togethers or play my xbox. I think money is the real issue to why I don't do a lot and half the time I overextend myself in that department. I always want to drive and always need to drive. I no longer go to school, realizing that working a full-time job and taking two classes a semester is a waste of time and money. I don't know what I want to do in life, which is the biggest issue I'm having right now. My personality is too hmm..ADHD for my own good. I'm always multi-tasking. Always the first one to get bored of things rather quick. I'm trying to open myself up to new things though. I've taken about four or five small trips out of state so far this year and let me tell you..that's something everyone should do. I'm soo relaxed not being in my contained little space. You can tell that oddly by the conversations you have with me and how much I swear in an oddly overly excited way. Everything's ohh eff this..eff that. But in a very happy upbeat kinda way? Does that even make sense. Anyway..I think my biggest stressor is not knowing what kind of job I'm gonna work for the rest of my life. I'm 22 yrs old. And so far I've just been working office jobs where they usually hire me and lay me off cause they realize they don't need me. But this job doesn't seem that way. I love it here I do. No office drama and I have my own office. My own room to do as I please, of course within limit. And its only a 15 minute drive which is a HUGE plus. But I'm too hyper, too not sit still kinda person. I need a job where I'm hands-on, constantly busy, no internet access kinda thing. I don't know.


The future honestly scares me sometimes. I think about it..I'm only 8 yrs away from 30. Ok so 8 is a lot. But as my next door neighbor once told me when I was in high school, "enjoy every minute of it, cause as soon as you're out, the time flys by." Which def. holds true. I've been out of high school for four years now. I mean thats a whole high school education gone by. I'm 22. I've past all the coveted ages, turning 18 and 21 and such. Now its on to finding a husband..and having children..when I'm 30 thanks. I have to look at everything in such a serious way. I have to think about all my actions and how they'll seriously affect me. There really isn't room for a large amount of error when you're older. Everything has a consequence and you have to take into account how big of one it may bring.Right now I'm just soul searching...going on with my life wondering what I should or could be doing. I mean don't get me wrong..I absolutely love my life. I have amazing friends..a brand new car..a good job..my xbox..and my volkswagen. But I feel for my own benefit I don't have "me" yet. I don't believe I've fully defined who I am or what I want in life. I think about it alot when I write the lil about me paragraphs on the social networking sites. Like hmm. I'm 22..I love my xbox and veedub..hate drama..love summer..I mean those are all standard things anyone else can write. How am I different? I mean obviously everyone has differences but what's one that I have that makes me completely and utterly the definition of myself? Sure, I can talk dirty with the guys, I don't mind getting dirty and I don't really mind guys doing guy things. But any other woman in the world could say the exact same thing.I'm pretty much stuck at a crossroads in my life. I need to do some soul searching, seriously.

So, on to other stuff. This weekend is H20 International. It's a HUGEEE volkswagen show in Ocean City MD. I love Ocean City..when I was younger I used to cry when I had to leave I love it soo much. But now eh. It's a tourist town..I've since fallen in love with Florida..especially the town of Deerfield Beach. It's just a beautiful picturesque town where the beach is your backyard. I got so used to driving round that I actually could find my way pretty well. I cruised down 95 a couple towns over and came back to Deerfield like it was my home. Knowing all the roads and such. I feel like in the near future I may actually move there. For myself. I just want to go away from everything I know and just live. Make new friends..let my veedub Charlie feel the warmth of the beach[so cheesy!]. Lie out on the beach on the weekends. Hang with my best friend Fred. Its been on my mind for oodles and oodles now. I think its time to take the plunge..and myself for real. Get outta my dependent habits and see the world for what it is..