I'm in a LaLaLa Mood.

Good afternoon blogger world. Sorry, I've been pretty MIA lately. My head's spinning in 7,146 different ways. I'm thinking about h20, my best friends' issue with her retard boyfriend, and how I don't get to see LB as often as I would like. =(

But, last night was good times. As usual I attended the Wednesday night get together but this time with CM in my car along with Swan per usual and BP following. We got to the g2g around 745pm and were there till 11pm.

Most of my time was spent talking to BP about everything and anything. That also unfortunately included the "cop talk." Yes, we all remember that lovely incident. He also informed me of alot of things I did not realize went on. Such as the cop saying that my car was illegally driven to Dubs on Defrost because I didn't have my insurance updated.!?

Ummmm, that's kinda impossible. Since my insurance is updated in January and July, so I love how the cop pretty much pulled something outta his tush. Not coool. Plus, I was also informed that the cop once drove by my house but I was not home. What was he going to do if I was?!

And why was an out of town cop bascially stalking me?! WTF, that's super shady. After glaring at him forever and telling him I wanted to smack the crap out of him, I got over it. No sense in getting my panties all twisted over something that happened several months ago. We put everything behind us and now are very good friends. With him being there, it also made me relalize who my true friends are.

PA Lover is bascially and has been for a while now on my shit list. All she has done in the last couple of weeks is complain about her bf and about this chick she hates, then ditch me to hang out with J.Dubs at get togethers.

Last night was pretty much the icing on the cake. She did not say hi to me once because I was with BP. She just glared at me. I was like ohhhh ok. I know her and BP don't like each other. But, that doesn't mean her and J.Dubs have to sit there and act 12 and laugh and talk loudly in front of us.

I'm just over the drama. And I certainly hope that she doesn't come to h20 because I know she won't be happy if Coco and Colin stay with us. (lol)

Next up: Things I Want Thursday!

I AM Going & It's Booked!

Good morning everyone! Well, I am as of now def . without a doubt going to h20. I got over being a retard and decided I cannot miss this. I still have no effin clue if LB is going though and it's kinda annoying that he just won't ask. It's like he's afraid that he will get yelled at. And its frustrating me because I don't want to know the last second.

Anyways, we decided to take a much bigger condo for $5 more. =) It's on 84th street instead of 103rd or whatever. It has two bedrooms, one with like a bunk bed type of thing and one with a king sized bed. It also has a pretty good sized living room (as seen above) with a pull out couch. Plus two bathrooms and an outside balcony.

It also sleeps 7 instead of 6. Which is good because Coco and his friend mite come down and stay with us, which would be cool because then if LB doesn't go I wouldn't feel so 5th wheelish and I wouldn't have to drive alone in my car.

So, we are bascially just waiting to see if LB is going to come, and it's kinda annoying because he acts like its no big deal if he tells us whenever. Sometimes I just wanna smack him. (lol)

I'll Admit It! I'm Lazy!

I know I know, second week in a row that I haven't done my weekend updates. =( I honestly have just been too lazy to recap what I did. I still  will be doing the thursday shiz sooo. And blabbing about a whole lot of nothing..

I missed you guys..I finally am getting to some blogs since I took today off to have a personal day. It's seriously my first legit day off in a loooong time besides Wednesdays which I don't get paid anyway, soooo.

I shall post tomorrow. Hopefully. Maybe. OK, I will!

So, Besides Him Being Hot, He's Amazing. ;)

I'm talking about Michael Phelps. I totally just watched him beat yet another world record and beat Cavoich who talked mad smack about him, saying that in Bejing that he had touched the wall before Michael did, altho Michael did indeed win gold.

They totally showed the replay and it honestly looked as though Cavoich did beat him. His hands were at the wall just as Michael was coming out of the stroke and hit the wall. Regardless, Michael is hot hot hot and an amazing athlete and I have such amazing respect for swimming and swimmers alike.

I digress.

This morning I woke up in a sour mood. All week I've asked Swan if he and EM were gonna go to the beach today and he kept saying i don't know. Then last night when we were at the bar, he said he was going with PA Lova, Lil B, J.Dubs and Lou. I was quite upset and literallu started crying when I woke up this morning, because I really like the company of EM but I feel like J.Dubs will take her away, and there will go the friendship.

I don't know, I suppose I feel like maybe EM doesn't really like me as much because for a while I was uncertain about going to h20 without LB and she was kinda mad bc she didn't wanna go without me.

But now I almost feel as if maybe I shouldn't go. I really want to but I don't want to be a 5th wheel nor do I wanna deal with the drama and fakeness of PA Lova. Plus, I almost feel as though I'm being pushed out because LB is never with me and maybe they feel like the pity party is over even though thats not what I want.

I'm just terrified that they'll ditch me to do couple stuff, and now I'm not even sure I trust Swan or anyone except my lover and CM.

I mean for God sakes I trust BP more than I trust Swan or EM at the moment. I feel like BP is a better friend than they are right now. SIghhhh.

What to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

We Finally Got A Place!

That odd shaped building right there...yup that's where we are staying for h20 in Ocean City, MD. I'm overly stoked. Swan and I were discussing what the hell we were gonna do, when I hopped onto the Coldwell Bankers website and looked at all the possible condos to rent.

About 3 yrs ago they started having mini weeks, so we are booked from Fri-Mon. =) The place has two bedrooms and two baths. We are staying in condo 15 something because they usually rent out certain rooms at some of the condos. In the pics, the  furniture looks super outdated, but eh, we just need a place to sleep and eat and chill in between running around the strip.

It's gonna be Swan and his gf EM, Pa Lova and Lil B, and hopefully LB and I. But who knows if LB's boss will end up letting him take 3 days off. Unfortunately we can't leave till after I get outta work because one of my co-workers has vacay that week and on Fridays another co-worker doesn't work.

Which stinks, but they just put our keys in a lock box and then we can pick em up whenever. I'm hoping LB does come, but I kinda feel like he won't and that super bums me out. He already has to work this Sunday even though it's supposed to be his day off. =(

Maggie, who works at LB's friends store (the one he first worked at) is in Italy for 3 weeks with her family, so Chris would have worked all day, everyday, so as a favor, Ivonna whos co manager with LB is gonna cover for him on Sunday which means, ypu, LB works at his store. 11-7.

Some days I feel like I wanna curl up in a tiny ball and cry because of his work schuedule. I mean he gets paid slightly over minumim wage and works his ass off like no other. I mean yea I have my besties to chill with it, but it's not the same. Sigh. And somehow I feel like his schedule will never get better.

And then I'm gonna get a second job come October and probably go to school in January. So, pretty much seeing my bf after October is non-existent. I hate money and the economy. It sucks like no other. =(

But, I'm still super stoked for our trip to h20 and our condo! =)

Please Welcome My Best Friend! =)

My best friend signed up for blogger a while ago to retell her dreams that she had the night before because she was curious to what they mean. But, now she wants to come out from her command post and say hello to the world.

So, please without further a-do, meet CM over at My Universe. In her first post out in the world, she discusses love. And honestly, I agreee. Sometimes, I myself wonder. So check her out! Add her, comment, you know the drill. ;)

I digress.

Let's just say certain sentences are triggers, and sometimes it's best to try and distance yourself from them. The sentences that is.

I'm sure you all know what I'm getting into, but for the time being, I just need to push it away..but it's still got me thinking against my will. Maybe he's right? Or maybe I just want him to be.

Sigh.

I know I said I would tell you all about some things that may or may not happened. But, eh they are squared away. I was originally annoyed that BP couldn't even call me to tell me he wasn't coming to the g2g, but apparently he tried to call me twice. Yay BP for sticking to your word. I'm proud of our friendship. =)

I really can't wait to go shopping tonite. =) Rockin out at Forever 21. =)

Cause This Can't Be Ignored!

So, I know most of you have probably come across the I could, I would, I should, etc post most bloggers are doing. I tried to ignore it, I really really did. But, it just looks so damn fun! So, I give credit to It's Unbeweavable! and LiLu because these super ladies did it too!

I digress. Here we go!

I can't....

touch my toes. seriously, i've never been able too.

believe i left the love of my life for someone 2 yrs younger me and who apparently lives his life in the emo state 24/7.

do math well at all. =( really, i fail at geometry like no other.

eat peanut butter straight up but love peanut butter coated in chocolate. like reeses peanut butter cups.

eat nuts unless they are surrounded by chocolate. such as peanut m&ms.

I can..

beat most boys in video games.

give good advice about life when I'm really in the zone.

be a little too forgiving, and sometimes I get stepped on.

eat a whole package of reeses peanut butter cups in one sitting, and I'm talking the 8-pack.

read Jimmy Buffett books over and over and over.

I won't...

give up on me anymore. it's time I start to live for myself and push myself in everything I do.

ever let drama in my life like I did in high school.

ever get too down and out. I love going with the flow.

ever not say I love you before I leave my love everyday.

ever take anyone in my life for granted. my parents are amazing and do so much for me. my friends are always there when i need a shoulder to cry on and my bf is always supportive of everything i do even if he doesn't always agree.

I Will..

treasure everyone in my life like no other.

continue to pwn boys in call of duty.

do something with my life by the end of this year. phlembotomy classes here i come!

love with all of my heart.

live everyday as though it may be my last.

go to Florida early next year.

let everything out when I need to on here, no matter what I say or feel because one day I'll look back on this and smile, laugh and remember the memories.

try and write my bf a cute lil love note every week before I leave his house while he's asleep.

continue to kiss my boys goodnite, aka LB and his pup because I can't leave without kisses!

I Shouldn't..

ever let anyone walk all over me again.

let my heart wander because sometimes it gets me in trouble and usually makes me very confused.

let the high school drama get to me, I'm better than that!

care about BP as other than an acquantince, but I care about him as though he was my BFF.

keep spending money the way I do. Willpower!

I Should..

get that second job asap so I can go to school asap.

be more concerned about my future and less concerned about what I'm doing every night.

tell certain people how I feel esp. if I feel I'm being mistreated.

come out of my shell to new people more often.

visit my blogger friends because some of them are so A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

tell my parents how much I appreciate everything they have ever done for me in my life because I'm afraid of them getting older.

be more financially responsible because the future is coming sooner than expected.

go to block island this summer, stand on a mountain and proclaim my love for life and everything in it.

give charlie more baths.

go to a country concert because even though its not my favorite genre, the words can be amazing.

write more about life and my experiences and how beautiful each day is, instead of recapping my semi exciting existence.

go to the doctors..both the gyno and the regular one.

stop caring about how people view me because no matter what I'm me.

buy a new shirt or pair of jeans or shoes once a mnth.

go to the gym as much as I can because I want to be healthy.

eat better.

probably stop writing, because I have alot of I shoulds, and I probably should do them all instead of just pretending I will.